Saturday, February 28, 2009

Christianizer

In the anticipated Mass I attended, I fell asleep at some parts of the Homily and can't understand the priest's voice much, I guess I was too tired because of the NSTP...
Well I got the last part at least... The priest said that Christians must be Christianizers as well, meaning, we must spread the word, even in little things that we are capable of. I was thinking, some people just laughs at the idea of religion and it's just bothersome at times to try changing them. But the good thing is, some people are really looking for a person to change them, it's just that they can't find that person yet and trying to be a Christianizer, we might be that person that can help them get closer to God. Like in some circumstances where a person can greatly improve a person's life. It is upon God's arrangement that you met that person and that person is actually needing someone exactly like you.

We must at least try to do our part just like another person helped us get closer to God. Well for me, the one who helped me was my classmate, Ian. I only met him last term, yet he improved my faith on God a lot. I thank God for that person as well as so may other people who helped me.

Work hard!

"The little that a good person owns is worth more than the wealth of all the wicked"
(Psalms 37:16)


Well, these passage caught my attenction and I believe it so much. I want a lot of people to read it because discontent leads to envy and envy can amplify temptation thus, making us sin. If we trust that the little we gain honestly is good enough and is more pleasing to Lord then we must be contented. What we are and who we are is exactly as God created us to be, as He planned us to be and as we should really be. If He is contented with how we are, why must we seek to become someone whom we are not? the talents we don't have or the abilities we can't gain, let us be thankful because that's exactly how He wanted us to be.

A professor from Benilde called Sir Pepe said, people might be born with more nimble fingers or better genes but no one is born a pianist or a model or anything at all.

we were actually born naked and without anything at all. But through His plan, we get the abilities He designed us to have. If He wanted us to learn piano, then He would've made a circumstance where we can learn so. If not, that means He needs you with something else.

I used to be really frustrated with how I seem to not be able to shut my mouth. I always irritate people with my talkativeness and loud voice. I badly wanted to change but I really can't. Even if I manage to be quiet for a few while then after that, I become noisy again. I really felt bad about my self esteem and with some of my characteristics as well, like how I laugh, how yellow my teeth were or how carefree I seem to be that might have been bothersome to others. But I realized during our Bible study that He wanted me to be like that because He needs me to do something for another person. That person is Karlene and thanks to her I have a better understanding of "NOT grumbling to the Lord" because I realize that those characteristics of mine might be bothersome to others but can also help. I really thank God to find Karlene as a friend. She's a great blessing to every friend of hers.
I suddenly remember how God sends angels to the people He holds dear, I honesly believe that Karlene is one.

Friday, February 27, 2009

Bible study

Well today is the first day I attended a Bible study and I am suprised... I used to think Bible studies are boring but today, it really changed my perspective. I learned a lot especially from Karlene. She was the one who led the Bible study. She told us her problems and how God helped her. I really want to be as strong in faith as the people I went with to the Bible study, they were really homely and you'd feel wecome to share your feelings.

What she told us were really good passages from the Bible, the parts where we should trust Him for every trouble we have. Trusting in Him for every need that arises because "He can put wilderness into the dessert" and such from those lines... impossible right? for Him it's not.

I'm really thankful for this opportunity to learn more about God and I really look forward to the next time I can join them again.

'Protect me, O God, I trust in You for safety.
I say to the Lord. "You are my Lord; all the good things I have are from You"
How excellent are the Lord's faithful people!
My greatest pleasure is to be with them.
' (Psalms 16:1-3)



(written on February 27 '09)

Saturday, February 21, 2009

prayers

In the worship service today, they said we shouldn't only pray with ready words, as the one who held the service said... "babbling" we should pray with words and meanings that comes from the spirit or else the prayer won't have much sense. I think what they're trying to say is we must mean what we say.
There is also that feeling of relief as if from a heavy burden and you feel like you are somehow carefree and light, I didn't really understood much at that part because it was partially in Chinese but I think they were talking about entering in God's holiness and trusting everything to Him. even if we know that we might die a few minutes from that moment, we won't panic if we trust everything to Him. I really hope I can one day accomplish that, I'm still trying to get over my self reliance.

There were lots of songs on the worship service as well and they're really nice songs but i still am looking for that song we sang in high school.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

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"The Lord is my light and my salvation, I know that there is nothing I should fear, He is my fortress, He is my shield, from whom shall I be afraid?"

This was a song for mass in our school, the chorus stuck on me because I really feel this way and this is exactly what I need during my down times... I have always been courageous thanks to Him and I shall never fear even death if he wills it. In trouble we sometimes forget to pray to the Lord, as a friend told me, the circumstances might not change but He made us change... I believe him,

"If you realize that everything you have is God's grace then you will be humble"

I heard this when I attended a Worship Service of another religion, I've learned so much that day and this really stuck on me as well. as the one who did the service explained, when the Lord took away Job's possessions did he waver? Job remained faithful to the Lord because he is aware that everything he had was the Lord's grace. Sometimes people forget who they owe things to, Even being proud of being faithful to the Father, you can't brag about that, He was the one who allowed you to sing praises to him, If not, you would have been mute and deaf.

"If you correct conceited people, you will only be insulted, If you reprimand evil people, you will only get hurt. Never correct conceited people; they will hate you for it. But if you correct the wise, they will respect you" (Proverbs 9;7-8)

I think this proverb simply tells us to be wise and accept our mistake by listening to what others teach us. we should not be conceited and learn from our mistakes because only by being corrected and by changing can we wisen up. we are not perfect being and interacting with others means tolerance and learning. different people have different views, each people have different principles, learning things from different people is like stepping up a staircase, every people you interact with gives you new knowledge, therefore we should be tolerant of their views. TOLERANCE...

"A gentle answer quiets anger, but a harsh one stirs it up." (Proverbs 15;1)

sometimes when we are trying to defend ourself, even if we are right but if the tone is aggressive/ offensive, it's taken in as opposing the other party, therefore, taken in as disrespectful and rude. giving a gentle answer is more persuasive and effective. you can make your listener relax because your tone is not offensive and your listener will take your words in and understand it. also with a gentle tone, both of you can settle accounts and produce result unlike if you are answering in harsh tone where both of you will get irritated and won't come to an end unless one is beaten. a very simple matter can become worse or can be fixed, it's up to your tone.

These are few things I believe in and I doubt that anyone can change my views.

Prayer

Dear God,
please protect the people I care for, my parents, my siblings, my relatives and my friends. please give them what they need and protect them from harm. Thank You for such a wonderful day I had and thank You for keeping me safe when I travel. please let the person I'm thinking about right now have a peace of mind because I feel like I've been causing him distress lately. Sorry if I forget to pray at night sometimes and sorry if I do wrong things, please forgive me Lord. Amen.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Don't try to outdo others

according to last Sunday's worship service, he said we shouldn't try to outdo others or it'll only lead us to sadness. trying to outdo others is like saying you're not satisfied with how God created you. It'll only bring you distress because you try to be better, but God loves you the way you are, if He wanted you to be better, He would've made you that way. be glad for how you were created. for example, 14 years ago I was operated on to remove my cyst, for some reason, my thyroid was removed as well, we discovered the removal when I was already 13. the result of that thyroid removal is, my hormones were slowly consumed, thus slowing my growth.

when I was in second year high school,I began to grow because of the hormone therapy. I began catching up on those years, in 4 years time, I grew about a foot in height. But the time it took me to grow, I already made mistakes and did stupid things. I often thought 'what if I were normal' but now, I am grateful for how the Lord made me. if not, I wouldn't have met some people whom I hold dear these days. every-single-mistake I made, every-single-circumstances I've encountered, I'm grateful. It made me to who I am now, and let me meet some really wonderful people, it also made me learn things I wouldn't have if I were normal and I wouldn't have met you. Thanks for reading this and I hope you are happy with what God gave you. He knows what's best.

Praising God

I read a book by Merlin Carothers (un ata name nia) and it really gave me a new view, his book was entitled "Power in Praise" and it talks about praising God.

In everything that happens, we should thank God, be it a good thing or a bad thing... I believe, that like me, you have always thought of thanking God only for the good things and not for the bad things, you either blame God or grumble about it. never forget that God designed every aspect of our life, those bad things may lead to good things as well if you see the good it has done to you. for example, if it rains when you are out of the house and left your laundry hanging to dry, you should thank God that you didn't forget your umbrella instead of grumbling about the re-wet laundry, well, even if you forgot your umbrella, you should still thank God, that rain feeds the plants giving farmers good harvest, and you, more food.

Grumbling is like being unfaithful to the Lord because you are thinking that God forsake you (or something around that line), well, He gave you problems and trouble simply because He loves you, thank Him and let his perfect plan of your life unfold right before your eyes.

Whatever the circumstances are, never forget that it's God's plan and it's for your own good, He loves you more than anyone does, even the person you love the most, your love can't compare to God's love for that person... never think that God forsakes anyone of us.

According to that book as well, you must accept Jesus as your savior, He died on the cross for the sins He didn't even commit, just for us. People are not made perfect, we shouldn't apologize too much for being human, instead let us have faith that God understands our weaknesses and He will help us as long as we trust in Him... this passage doesn't mean that you can commit as much mistakes as you can simply because you are human but you must do your best to follow God's words and trust that He is your savior. You must be loving, compassionate... agape is a form of love which is a Godly kind of love, it is a willful love, to love your enemy is an example. faith is also from will, your will to believe in something you can't grasp with your five senses. just like a blind person believing there is color and light.

Our prayer must be for praising God, not for selfish wishes. Love God above all and be thankful for whatever His plan for you brings. =dAnDaN=